I am a second-generation, Taiwanese-American woman based in San Francisco working in corporate impact communications. I'm married and mom to a 17-month-old baby girl.
I struggled with infertility, so I decided to do In vitro fertilization. During the pandemic, I underwent 9 procedures. I had two miscarriages back to back, and going through it all was agonizing. I was consumed with the pursuit of having a baby, and loss after loss, I felt like a failure.
After having the baby, the postpartum period was even more challenging. For the first several months, I was in a dark place, crying daily and racked with worry over my new baby. I experienced insomnia and was constantly exhausted and upset.
During that difficult postpartum period, the turning point was when I reached out for help. I was diagnosed with postpartum depression and anxiety and got connected to services offered through my hospital: a therapist, a moms' support group, and a psychiatrist for medications.
I no longer felt alone. With this foundation of support, I was motivated to make positive changes. I turned to my faith and relied on God for help. Day by day, I started to see my mood improve.
Going through this experience has been transformative. I've learned how to cope with my anxiety. I am a completely different mom and person than before. I've learned to let go of the worries, and that enables me to not just survive but thrive.